Crashing off the Wagon

Crashing off the Wagon

I say crashed because that is exactly what happened. Over a year ago I had taken back my life, and was on the road to reaching my weightloss and fitness goal. I had joined Weight Watchers and was actively in the gym 3 times a week along with fitness at home. I was eating very well and feeling GREAT. In 6 months I was in the best shape I had been since having my 2 kids. Then it slowly went downhill. My last year of Nursing started and the stress of personal life was too much to handle and I began to eat, and not work out as often. Then I began to feel guilty for my actions and regret and then one day I woke up and I realized I had forgotten to take care of what matters the most. I put school, kids, others before me and let go of my only outlet of stress and anxiety (working out). I forgot to care about “me”. Today I admit I have gained back 10lbs and gained 2 inches on my hips and 1 inch on my tummy and 1 inch on my thighs. I had began to binge eat and even though I do still eat fairly healthy there are moments when the chips seem better then the baby carrots or when the chicken wings are looking mighty tasty for me to turn down. I switched and used food as my outlet and in the end it has caused more issues then solving anything.

I have been saying since January that I am going to change my lifestyle and 3 months later almost I have not changed much. However I am happy to say, today I have made some small changes towards my lifestyle changes. I have worked out tonight and made sure I got my food groups in my diet and I didn’t binge eat.

I admit I am a control freak and have to have things a certain way, working out and being healthy makes me feel comfortable, feel balanced in life and I enjoy the way I feel. These days I feel out of control, and extremely overwhelmed and was soon ready to turn my back on the wagon I was not feeling like me.

I care about my health, making sure I will live a great, healthy, long life for my kids, and for myself. In just over a year I will be getting married and I do want to make sure I am in my best shape ever so when I put on my wedding gown, I can not only feel great, but look great and be healthy.

My goal is that now that I have admitted this to myself and shared my story I will be able to turn everything around yet again and be 100% back on track. I’ll be posting updates when I can…I am excited for this journey and know that anything is possible and that I will reach my goal. It’ll just take one step at a time, one weigh in at a time and one choice at a time with my life.

Watch for future postings…..